Neko

I AM ALONE IN THIS WAR / THAT'S WHAT THIS SOUL WAS FORGED FOR

DRILLING MY WAY TO THE CORE / I'VE TASTED BLOOD AND WANT MORE

hi there. i go by nemesis, but much like many of the others, i have a long and self-indulgent full name. this name is NEMESIS EUTHANASIA CHARLOTTE TENEBRAE AR RAI. you may call me any of the first four. i share my surname, AR RAI, with my sibling - CHARLIZE. the surname we share means "hyperbolic inverse of paradise", which is fitting because we are both devils of justice.

i personally consider myself a sort of executioner when it comes to enacting justice. i am highly vengeful and hyperviolent, but if you are nice to me, i won't have any reason to reap your soul. i promise i am generally pretty agreeable... just terminally edgy. and volatile, and easy to trigger... but i am becoming more comfortable with asserting my boundaries, and wanting to be the repoman from repo is something that makes me feel happy, safe, and in control.

another thing i like about myself is that i am a cat! i am a catboygirl with cat ears and a tail (both are black), and sharp nails and teeth. i have devil horns and a second tail, which are also black with a violet glow to them. the devil tail usually wraps aound the cat tail, and sometimes i crackle with violet-black lightning. my heart is a star that has collapsed into a black hole.

here are some pictures of what i look like! the first is from march 2026, and the second is from april 2026.

my favourite fashions are jirai kei and rivethead. i want nothing more than to be a cute boy in a violet-black jirai kei coord, or a genderless menace wearing a stupid amount of black leather and spikes under their trench coat.

when it comes to music, i really like industrial, alt-metal, cybergrind, gabber, and sirencore. artists i like are rabbit junk, ozigiri, coakira, banshee, moro, free.99, jazmin bean, kmfdm, and aural vampire. there are probably more artists, but i would rather be concise here.

you should hear my playist though. :3

my favourite sort of weapon is one of opportunity, because i think improvisation is badass. much like my sibling, i am partial to guns and explosives, but, being a reaper i quite like scythes and blades as well.

i am among the more sadistic alters in manyface. despite being extremely demisexual/asexual (i am questioning which one of those fits me more, i am demiromantic too though) and having very strict boundaries on my sexuality, i have a lot of bloodlust. fun fact: i almost named myself torture instead of tenebrae.

very tentatively and after a recent experience, i am comfortable calling myself a transmasculine lesbian. my pronouns are she and he, but i don't mind they or it pronouns when they are used for me by my friends. here is a page about my gender and stuff.

my sexuality is shaped irreversibly by our trauma, and while i am not comfortable elaborating further, i can talk about my lovely partner who treats me very well and loves me for who i am. her name is ACIL and she is the nicest girl in the world and makes me feel like a very happy kitty. i am very proud of how far i have come in trusting and opening up to her. feeling security in a relationship while being a trauma-holder type alter is kind of a crazy feeling, but my wife makes me so happy.

aside from listening to music and talking to people who care about me, i like to draw a lot. i often draw MY FURSONA or myself. i have a very angular style that is pretty distinct in the system, but i just love lines and shapes. i think drawing myself helps me feel grounded, secure, unique, and special, so it is probably my favourite activity. i also can write poems, but they come out very dark and intense. another thing i like to do is consume weed edibles and experience the world from that vantage point.

here are a load of quiz results that may reveal more of my true nature to you. i have honestly been very calm and measured on this page, but i am a genuine freak who loves blood.

Poison

oh right, i should show the dear reader my list of red flags.

here are my fictional kintypes:

  • slayer (magical destroyers)
  • necrobinder (slay the spire 2)
  • reze (chainsaw man)
  • sakura matou (fate/stay night)
  • bernkastel (umineko)
  • yukari (homunculus)

am i crazy? perhaps. but i am also kind of metal and very based. sometimes i feel like a warped reflection from a broken mirror that came back too sharp and noisy, but i can use even this to my advantage. watch how my edges glide through sinew.

sometimes it's a struggle to remember that there's nothing tremendously wrong with me, despite the circumstances of my origin. despite that, i have no intention of ever masking on this website. so i hope you have enjoyed the page dedicated to me in particular.